Halloween, Not Me

After 7 days of eating no sugar I started eating junk and haven't stopped. Yesterday I only had chocolate  bars, donuts and pepsi for every meal. How crazy is that. Tonight is Halloween and I didn't buy any Halloween candy. Tonight of all nights I need to stop my eating frenzy, it is so important that I do it tonight. My adult children come here and we all hand out candy to the neighbourhood kids  and we all pig out with the bought exra candy. If we dont get as many kids guess what we eat the leftovers. This has to stop and I'm the one who has to stop it. My adult daughters think I should still do it, no I'm not going to. My husband said we have to give the little kids candy, no I don't have to. My husband asked one of my daughters to come and give out candy and she told him to do it himself. He won't do it because he is to lazy. At least my daughters are supporting my decision. My husband doesn't like change but I'm determined. Not sure what I'm going to do instead, not answering the door doesn't seem right. I will get out of the house. 

Peaceful

I'm feeling  so peaceful after making the decision not to lose anymore weight. I wanted to lose more weight in hopes that my clothes would fit better. Realistically that isn't going to happen. I will always have a droopy stomach, losing a bit more weight won't help that in fact it will only droop more. It is time to accept that and move on. Actually I'm fine with my weight as it is. I'm at a reasonable weight for my height.

I will still tackle my binge eating problem. It's not as bad as it use to be but it needs work. I still eat to many sweets, being diabetic I need to get this under control. I have tried to go without but keep failing but I will not give up on this. I live to conquer.