Feel So Positive

Weigh In
Start weight 216
Lost 1 lb back to goal weight of 145
New goal 135


Feeling more positive and climbed out of the pity pot. On top of everything my back was causing me pain. I have had 2 massages and feel almost normal. I also joined Half Size Me, so I will give it a try. Got in my exercise 25 minute walk. My husband and I had ice cream tonight and I deemed it as my last one for a while. 

Turn Around

 After  I posted below I was in a tizzy about what to do next. Was I going to the corner store and pig out? I had a small cry I felt so stressed and upset with myself. Finally I decided that I would go for a walk and if I still wanted junk I would get some. Wow what a change in attitude. It was hot out so I walked the mall, each lap is 1 k. After I decided to try on dresses, I will need one for my daughters wedding next year.. I found a couple that looked good on me. Not perfect but they hid my stomach a bit. By then I was feeling so good I didn't binge. I came home and had a healthy supper. Happy dance

Wasting my Time

i don't think anything can stop me when I decide to binge. I was doing fairly well until I got upset over a few things then I binged. I feel hopeless and useless. I can't do bogging right so no help in that area. There is a half size me community which charges 15.00 a month and there is pk thing called Binge Eat No More 47.00 but should I waste my money only to fail again. Only I can do this, my mind would probably over ride any advise. I feel so terrible I let food control me. All I can think about is junk food and going to the corner store. 

Weigh in

Sept 6 -- 146 down 5lbs.

Aug 31--  151 up 6 lbs.

New goal 135 lbs. and getting sugar out of my life

Goal 145 Stayed within 5-10 lbs for 5 years
216 -145 A 71 lb loss

Sept 6  Being sick plus not having any pepsi and chocolate made for a good weight loss. Look at a bottle of pepsi mine has 69 gm of sugar and chocolate bars 23-36 gm of sugar. This diabetic has a serious problem when I go back to having this junk, no nutritional value at all. I have not had any junk food this week. Another migraine on Monday,I know from the past I would have serious withdrawals from not having pepsi. I'm determined to conquer this problem.. Stayed in bed all day drinking only water. I had strong cravings in the evening as my migraine eased up. In the past I would have pop and chocolate to get rid of the lingering headache. It would  work and it was comforting but I didn't have it.

Sept. 7   Ate healthy, drank water and went for a 36 min. walk. Extreme pain tonight so went to bed at 7 pm and slept for 1 hour. Feel almost better. 

Slow But Steady

Slow because I'm still not feeling in tip top shape but feeling a bit better each day.  Some of this might seem pitiful to you but once I recover look out lol.

What I'm pleased with is I haven't had any pepsi only drinking water and some skim milk. I'm not a coffee drinker but have drank tons of pepsi through the years. No chocolate, even with being sick there have been times I have sent my husband to get me some, which  is the last thing I need esp. when sick.  I know I have  to get rid of  the sugar permanently.  I'm exercising more consistently.

 Sept 3. Felt queasy but no migraine and no vomiting. Ate healthy but not much food. Went for a10 minute walk but my back was sore so came home and rode my exercise bike for 20 minutes which didn't hurt my back. Towards the evening started to feel sick again so went to bed early.

Sept 4. Still not much food, still queasy so took gravel with my meals. Felt better in the evening so went for a 42 min. walk. Getting in 6-8 glasses of water.

Sept 5. Good food day still not eating much but only had to take gravel once today. Walked 17 min. Back hurt so rode my exercise bike for 20 min. My daughter was over today and we did some crafting which is always fun. Went to store this evening and bought more veggies, fruit, and salmon. Good dinner for tomorrow.

Hopefully Getting Better

   Three days of being sick and I'm just starting to feel a bit better tonight.

I have been wearing capris all summer that were on the loose side. On Sunday evening it was cool outside so I put pants on, they were tight in the waist and stomach. Monday morning I got on the scale and I have gained 6 lbs.

Five years ago I lost 71 lbs and I have managed to keep it mostly within a 5 lb. range. first I want to lose this 6 lbs. then I decided I want to set a lower goal to lose another 10 lbs.

My problem  is I will eat healthy for a while then slowly slip backwards to eating hell. With being sick I haven't made it to the grocery store but have hardly eaten anything and what I have eaten hasn't stayed down. I did try a few Breton crackers and cheese and so far okay. My migraine is gone, which I'm sure most of that was from not drinking pepsi. Feeling positive tonight.